Thursday, November 19, 2015

Salted egg pumpkin

Ingredients:

Pumpkin
Salted egg(yolk only)
All purpose Flour
Butter
Oil

Steps:
1.cover pumpkin with flour.
2.deep fry until golden
3.heat up butter and yolk until bubbled.
4.put in fried pumpkin into butter mix in pan
5.ready to serve

Chef tips.
1.fried pumpkin should be light as in tempura fries otherwise you have failed

Good luck 😊

Salted egg pumpkin

Ingredients:

Pumpkin
Salted egg(yolk only)
All purpose Flour
Butter
Oil

Steps:
1.cover pumpkin with flour.
2.deep fry until golden
3.heat up butter and yolk until bubbled.
4.put in fried pumpkin into butter mix in pan
5.ready to serve

Chef tips.
1.fried pumpkin should be light as in tempura fries otherwise you have failed

Good luck 😊

Hokkien mee kl style recipe

I took this from taste with jason recipe

Ingredients

Pork bone broth (pork bone,fish bone,prawn skins boiled for a few hour)
One sided fish powder (bbq until dry then turn to powder)
Soy sauce soup
Noodle (alkaline type)
Lard
Garlic paste
Protiens (beef,squid etc2)

Steps

1.heat in oil.
2.add garlic,protiens,noodle,generous amount of soups and close up to simmer the ingredients.
3.open when the ingredients dry up.fry.add lard at the end of cooking for fuller creamy taste.
4.ready to serve

Chef tips:
1.one sided fish is the direct translation,it is a fish that have eyes and mouth only on one side of its body.5his is the ingredient that defines ur hokkien noodle from any other noodle.
2.if you can fry on charcoal stove it will give you better taste from that charcoal smell.same goes for koey teow or that flat rice noodle.fry on your bbq set if you have 1.
3.alkaline noodle have that texture that makes you feel fuller and it have the distinct taste making it different from normal rice noodle.
4.lard is for creamy taste that is close to what other chef emulates with adding butter after certain dishes.
5.i would replace all pork based ingredient with beef just for halal reasons 😊

All and all,enjoy and try and try again until you make it.happy cooking.

Friday, September 4, 2015

Freethinker way of thinking,is it really free

Had a heat up conversation with this ex lecturer.guess your upbringing really makes you and your way of thinking.

Or is it thats just so backward?anyway listen up if you like.

Are you sure you are free enough when you try to defy every law in existance just because you dont want to bother other people's 'ease of life'?

When even god's law is at stake.
It really makes me wonder,what does it mean when you say god's law is not 'in the right moment' to be implemented. Or 'we are not at the right condition' to apply them. Just because we have so many religions and race to take care of.

Is it really that what god tells you to do is irrelevant to be run? Or is it you that are trying to reinvent the wheels?

Try and error,and failing,and societies ruined after each failed laws. Like a system that does not let you control it,saying you dont have enough administrative power.just to be smashed and ruined by you because it does not produce the result that you want it to.

Like windows not letting you copy files to partition D because you are not admin, or android kitkat not allowing you to copy files to external memory card because its a stupid law reinvented to 'ensure stability and security'. When its just a hindrance and nuisance to be thrown away in the end.heheh


Thursday, September 3, 2015

A small dot on god's land

Google map sure helped me alot. I used it to find my kiblat,used it to navigate my tours.many more.

Right now when i zoomed out from the map it really occurs to me.im just a small dot on a 1/5th section of this island called australia.

Still,the journey seems so far..
And tiring..
And boring me..
Making me give up..
Making me stressed out..

Guess i really am a negative person huh..


Note to self:
We are on a journey to find ourself.
To fin peace,and quiet.and harmony.
Live off the land.
Learn as much as you can
Before we walk some more to eternal death.

Maybe spending a year here.
Later on,to japan.
Before that see our parents first.
See hanif's wife.how she look.how she fares.
After that off to die..


Thursday, August 6, 2015

I am lucky

To be honest, i have gotten this far in my life is purely out of luck.(which means purely god gifted bliss and bless)

there are a lot of things that i could mention but 1 thing that i want to mention right now is my father. Because he is still alive,and at work. Its all about his money really,not him.hahah. i always wish i could have another father.hahah

The reason i said that because today i remembered about my primary school friends.

          1.anuar,he is some sort of bully of sort.(atleast that what i thought of him at that time.) He got a really big body,sort of a sumo sized kid.I used to be beaten by him on the football field 1 day,we were 11 at that time. But being the hero that i am,i climbed on his back,choked his neck and brought him backside down face facing the sky.also gave him a few punches in the face.hahah.
        then when we were 12,he had to quit school. I felt weird at that time but we lost contact.after im 15 did i found him again sending ice cubes to a school function at a school that i visit. Thats when the driver told me his father died and he have to quit school and go to and worked on an ice truck delivering ice bags to shops .

          2. Suzali. We were class buddies.his father was a taxi driver. died being robbed and stabbed in his cab by a passenger. He is not the brightest kid in class.also mixed with some naughty kids so his performance went downhill. Afterwards ive changed school a few times but whenever we met he will always be the first to say hi to me.
          He didnt have the financial support that he need so he cant continue  college. I really hope to help him in some ways because he lived just a few houses away from my place.

          3. Aisyah and her sister shahmimi. Their father opened a restaurant near the bridge at my village. He died out of heart attack. Since then,they have to be put in orphanage because their mother died a few years before. Every time i cross that bridge and saw the remnants of that shop i always wonder,what happened to the both of them?


All and all thats what i want to say.you are just worth your fathers money.hahah. i used to scorn having a poor father but after a few years working im alreasy pass the stage of wanting. For me i am thankful for being poor because if i have money,i dont know, i might have used it to make bad deeds.i would spend on hookers or something like this because i am really, a lustful person. I love woman and i can easily fall in love given the conditions that i set is met.hahah

End note:

imagine me,doing the money throw on a hooker like that arab king's son you can see on youtube.
Watching that made me be thankful that im poor.heheh

I was also thinking,when i made a few extra thousands working here i want to take my parents to visit australia. Make them stay for a few days.Take them on a visit or something like that, hope it will come true. Amin


Saturday, August 1, 2015

Gluttonious rice recipe(Resipi nasi lemak)

This recipe is for those of you who doesnt know a thing about kitchen scales and measurement from other recipes.hahah

This is for the rice only. Ingredient for the sauce is at the bottom.
Ingredients:

Coconut milk 1/2 box of 1 littre.
Rice 4-5 drinking glass
Water 1 inch above rice surface.(use your pointing finger, water level should be exactly on the first foldable finger line)
Salt 1-2 table spoon
Ginger 1 thumb size
Onion 1/6 of the bulb (slice in half,then slice 1/3 of that)

Steps:

1.Wash rice 3 times.(this is only my preference)
2.Saute onion,and ginger
3.put only onions and ginger,prevent oil from enterjng as much as possible.
4.pour water until it reach 1 folding level of your finger above rice surface.always shake your rice until it create a flat surface.
5.pour coconut oil and salt
6.cook properly

The sauce:

Ingredients:

Protiens,deep fried.(meat,egg,fish up to you how much)
Dried Chillies ( take a handful,slice,soak in hot water for 5 minutes,blend in blender),
*if theres none, use chilli powder 1 laddle full,mix with water to create thick batter like mixture.
Oil 1/3 of frying pan.use all balance from frying protien.
Onions balance from preparing rice,put all
Garlic 3 cloves
Brown sugar 5 table spoon *optional*
Sugar 3 table spoon *optional*
Shrimp paste 1 inch cube
Salt 4 table spoon
Msg(monosodium glutamate a.k.a aji no moto) 1/2 tablespoon*optional*.
Tamarind paste 1 bowl
Water 1 bowl

Steps:

1.deep fry protiens,put aside.keep oil in pan.
2.put in onions and garlic.
3.pour chilli paste,water,tamarind paste into oil.fry until bubbles up(oil break).
4.after oil bubbled,put in all seasonings (sugar,salt,msg etc.).wait 1 minute to boil.
5.pour on top of protiens,put protiens inside sauce.up to you.
6.ready to serve.

Chef's note;
1.deep fry rather than put protiens directly inside sauce to achieve that nice crispy texture.
2.if your rice doesnt cook properly,put plastic bag on top of rice surface to capture steams to cook rice.
3.the core thing you need to look after in:
   -rice: coconut milk and ginger smell.a little hint of saltiness to cover up coconut milk bland creamy taste.
   -sauce: sauce should be a little bit sweet for you that couldnt stand hot sauce.but i like it hot and sour.

Happy cooking 😁


Sunday, June 14, 2015

A little detour

A little detour for the night.took a train from pudu to sri petaling.
Walked another 1.2km to masjid jamek sri petaling. Going to sleep here.heheh. see, being a muslim means its ok to be cheap. Free lodging for the night! Yeay..

With only 1.90 train fare,and an exhausting hike,i could save tens of ringgits for lodging.

To be true,i think i only stayed once in a hotel through out all my adventures.heheh


Face whom He loves

Met someone so beautiful on the bus
Kept stealing glances at her
I know if shes aware of this im sure to be labeled a freak.hahah

The point is, the feeling that i achieved.that tingling moment.
You can imagine them like the sparkling glittering moments in some tv drama or such.

That calmness and relaxation that you feel by lookinh at her.

The face that you love. I do hope that i could be look at by Allah with the same feeling or more. Wouldnt it be great. To be looked at by him, as if you are his lover.
P/s: No Homo Okay! Hahahah


New adventure: my journey to kangaroo land

After my long hiatus, im back on another journey.
This time, its Australia!

As usual,lets talk funding.
Ticket from pantai remis towards manjung.on bas amanjaya (direct bus) : rm 6.80
Manjung to pudu central: rm27.10


Saturday, May 30, 2015

Teringat semasa dulu

how do i say this.hmm...
Lets put it like this.
Lately ive been missing fa quite alot.
Maybe its the kickback from what ive done before.
I dont know how long things will go on.
Maybe a few more days.maybe weeks.
Or perhaps this will be a lifetime of regret.
All and all i just want to know more about her now.
Turns out she also changed her number.so there goes my chance.
See you later fa.

This is an embarassing lament. But wtf, this is a diary after all. Thing that i will leave behind as a mark that i once used to live on the earth.
Wish that i will not regret things anymore in my grave and on the afterearth.

Weekend in masjid jamek

My weekend in masjid jamek.in preparation for my aussie gig next month. To no surprise this area is swarming with bangladeshis. Even to ask for direction is hard enough for me to find a malaysian. Should i learn their language?? Hmm..i wonder. Hahahah

For the record im the type that condones borderless earth. For me rezeki is anywhere. If you work,you eat.thats all.

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Advice from above

About the time i was in penang,
on a supposedly 'date' with my then fiance.
in the evening of that day,on the eve of leaving for the day.
i was approached by a drug addict. cough syrup by the smell. and also some black mint candy 'hacks' brand.
he approached me about god,about believe what u call Iman.
that guy keeps reoccuring in my thoughts again and again some times.
of course,around that time im quite involved with the tabligh guys
not that involved but i have some acquaintances,joined some activities.

still the marks left was when im forgetting him,
thinking like its ok to do sins when its still sin all the way.
maybe it was a way to save her.because its her that deserve the saving in the way.
she is so preserved in a way.somewhat holier than me if you know what i mean.
and i let her go, hahah

right now i believe im still saved by him anyway.
same as my bangkok trip.
the wallet i lost for a reason.
all and all,i still hope i will be saved when im dead.

most importantly, the guy sent from him 'above' really wakes me up.
that im not that much better than that drug addict.

Thursday, April 23, 2015

Ongoing thoughts

Something keeps bothering me right now.

My father have to resign by the end of this month. Health condition, his hip bone and back bone sort of slipped,so he is limping right now. The back bone disc also sort of have some tumor.

Right now im just wondering over lots of things. What should i do.

I cant really get good paying job right now.
I also need to find some sort of income to help the family.
In the mean time i still wants to travel.
Somehow i also been thinking should i just go die in syria?
Afraid that in the after life, i would not have enough good deeds to allow me to go to heaven.
Even think that i should just rear goats on the family estate.not even close to 1acre3.

im not even married yet.in the future can i support my family.
Can i fullfill my childs desire,or we are stuck in the 'bimbo' cycle.hahah
Can i make them happy.or they detest me like i detest my father.

Also,today we got our internet line cut off.he cant pay for the bills anymore. And tonight our house,theres a blackout.thunder struck the house. Amidst the flashlight glare and darkness shadow, i saw my father's look. How deep inside be is saddened by all thats happening to him. And the useless son who is leeching on him after saying that he'd left the house for good.

All and all, though i cant say this to you, im sorry dad.

Haah..if only you are still here farah,you would be disgusted with me as well.hahah

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

The office tv series

This is the best series ive watched in my life. I found it doing some random personality quiz.

Unfortunately, i am tobby. Who is he? Tune in and find out for yourself. Unfortunately i dont want to post any link. Its too troublesome. Heheh.

Saturday, January 31, 2015

How to change your dns server on android

On android device you will find that changing only your dns number is quite hard.you either need to setup your vpn first by registering on some vpn provider and such. Or you need to root your device.which is another gruelling task for non tech savvy like us.

To solve the problem,download

Engelsiz

This is by far the easiest.
It is only a few kb in size,and you can find them on google store.

In case things change in the future just search for "dns changer android non root"
That should help you in with standard devices.

Happy surfing :)

Foot note edit: for you first timers, 8.8.8.8 is your lucky number. Good luck :)

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Update on myself

This is an update on myself. I am becoming more evil by the days.although there are remorse in my heart,but i still spout harsh words. Anger easily fills my heart. Every mistake makes me lose my temper. Every stupidity  gestures makes me want to scold them hard. This is just a reminder post for my future self. If you read this later, remember what we want is just peace and harmony. Do good to others so that we can have a peaceful death

Monday, January 26, 2015

Why i want to teach

Because i love kids and i believe that the future generation need to learn more about life in itself. I believe i can help shape them to make this world a better place.

And why i want to teach english exactly.

Because i know i have the advantages of understanding this language better. There are moments that when i hear to or read someone using english that is broken it irritates me. I felt that i want to help them understand better. This sort of feeling irks me so much that at every time it happens i just feel the urge to correct them if i can.

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah
Thank you allah the almighty
The one who feeds and starve whom ever he wants.

Alhamdulillah allah the almighty
The ruler of the universe
Who controls every deed and sins of every being
Who controls the well being and souls of every creature he made.

Im writing this because how thankful i am for some few slices of bread that i recieved from the traveler friend i met.
And thankful for this test about how i lost my wallet. Heheh

My trip to Bangkok

Everything is messed up today.

Upon arrival,I lost my wallet. Asked the station master also cant help so, here i am on a train going home to sg.kolok.

I LITTERALLY HAVE RM1.50 WITH ME

Met a really cool trio. They studied in a religious school mostly known as 'sekolah pondok'. Named nazri and ibrahim and the other guy i didnt bother to ask.

Because we all are malay looking so they took a free ticket for me from bangkok to sg.kolok. if not, i would have to pay a hefty rm 51.40 ticket.

Along my trip in thailand, i really have been helped alot by people from religious background. Theres mr. Nam a tabligh guy who treat me with food and took care of my accommodation. There's these guys who treat me to food and drinks. Alhamdulillah

I think allah took away the money because my will is wavering. I've been thinking to hook up with some whore, I've been thinking to get a cheap wife from cambodia etc,etc. So, that's why tjis happened. I even plan to go shopping in Naran. Even the thailanese said the items there are cheap. Hahah

Foot note: i regret not getting a shoulder bag sooner. I planned to get them in Naran along with a tent and a bike. That could save me lots of money on trips and accommodation. Hahah.

So, here i am, going back to malaysia for all the stuff to be remade. Lucky i still have my passport so things wouldnt get all that sticky. I hope. Heheh

Pss: i did something stupid just now. I was in the train's bathroom. After im done, i want to get out and couldnt push or pull the door. I even slammed the door for help. Eventually the door slides open and that was a very2 embarrassing moment. Hahah losing my wallet really takes a toll on me. I remembered just yesterday i was boasting to myself saying i can do anything even without money. Hahah

Hitchiking journey

Thus begins my journey back from rantau panjang towards pantai remis perak. On foot!! Hahah. Wish me luck

Edit: i waved a few hands, alhamdulillah finally got a lorry driver to stop, so he gave me a lift now we are heading towards grik,perak

Another transit. Hitch hiked from grik towards parit buntar

Walked a little bit, got some passerby qho stopped and gave me a lift to the bus station. Even gave me 25rm. Only god can repay them.

1 thing i learn from all this, people who are less fortunate is the one who helps first. People with shiney cars usually doesn't bother about you even if u waved for help.

Back in kelantan

I dont have connection right now. I hope when all this things passed, the post will publish accordingly to my date of writing.

Here i am back in kelantan to remake my ic,liscense atm card and everything.

Found a big masjid, old enough i think this place is also featured in many reviews about kelantan. It have a little bit of chinese design on it. I thunk i will be staying here for 1 whole week.Hopefully the imam will not throw me away.i already scouted a good place to hang my hammock if im thrown away. Hopefully its not near a septic tank or i will be mosquito feast this coming weak.

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Dr. Aron test

These questionaires will make you fall in love to even a stranger.

Rules.

-Face each other directly. Look at each other without diaturbance.

-Ask and answer to each other this question 1 question at a time, after you both answer then only will you move to the next question.

- After the test, stare into each others eyes for four minute

Set I

1. Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as a dinner guest?

2. Would you like to be famous? In what way?

3. Before making a telephone call, do you ever rehearse what you are going to say? Why?

4. What would constitute a “perfect” day for you?

5. When did you last sing to yourself? To someone else?

6. If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the mind or body of a 30-year-old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you want?

7. Do you have a secret hunch about how you will die?

8. Name three things you and your partner appear to have in common.

9. For what in your life do you feel most grateful?

10. If you could change anything about the way you were raised, what would it be?

11. Take four minutes and tell your partner your life story in as much detail as possible.

12. If you could wake up tomorrow having gained any one quality or ability, what would it be?

Set II

13. If a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future or anything else, what would you want to know?

14. Is there something that you’ve dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven’t you done it?

15. What is the greatest accomplishment of your life?

16. What do you value most in a friendship?

17. What is your most treasured memory?

18. What is your most terrible memory?

19. If you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? Why?

20. What does friendship mean to you?

21. What roles do love and affection play in your life?

22. Alternate sharing something you consider a positive characteristic of your partner. Share a total of five items.

23. How close and warm is your family? Do you feel your childhood was happier than most other people’s?

24. How do you feel about your relationship with your mother?

Set III

25. Make three true “we” statements each. For instance, “We are both in this room feeling ... “

26. Complete this sentence: “I wish I had someone with whom I could share ... “

27. If you were going to become a close friend with your partner, please share what would be important for him or her to know.

28. Tell your partner what you like about them; be very honest this time, saying things that you might not say to someone you’ve just met.

29. Share with your partner an embarrassing moment in your life.

30. When did you last cry in front of another person? By yourself?

31. Tell your partner something that you like about them already.

32. What, if anything, is too serious to be joked about?

33. If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone? Why haven’t you told them yet?

34. Your house, containing everything you own, catches fire. After saving your loved ones and pets, you have time to safely make a final dash to save any one item. What would it be? Why?

35. Of all the people in your family, whose death would you find most disturbing? Why?

36. Share a personal problem and ask your partner’s advice on how he or she might handle it. Also, ask your partner to reflect back to you how you seem to be feeling about the problem you have chosen.

Now, stare into each other's eyes for four minutes

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Saw her shadow

Saw someone, a little bit taller. But her looks are quite similer to intan.

Her eyes, her teeth, her smile, her shrouded kind of veil.

It's okay. I don't really forget her yet, because she left quite a big impact on my self esteem and my heart.

Especially her smile. It's quite something. Still, i don't recall ever receiving any from her though. Hahah. May this feeling reside in this diary forever.

Its ok to miss the good feelings you used to have. Because she is special, that's why you fall for her in the first place. After some time, you will forget her eventually.
By the way, thats how people break up anyway. They have no more feeling for each other. Hahahah

My travel expenses: thailand

Sg.kolok:
Motorcycle taxi: rm 10 each trip
1.roam around sg.kolok
2. To a masseus house.
20rm for a 2 hour session massage

From sg.kolok to narathiwat:-
Kereta kabat:Rm 5

Narathiwat to tanjung mas:
Kereta kabat Rm 2.50

Tanjung mas to bangkok:
Rm 52.00 train

Total: 99.50

Narathiwat

Nothing much. People here are typical malay same as Malaysia. Some are good some are not. Some will welcome you, ohters will shun you if they think they are better than you. And they always do. Most speak malay. Main writing are jawi and thai.

Apa khabar orang kat kampung?

Aku rindu tidur kat rumah. Feel like im not welcomed any where. Rasa sedih ja. My will is also wavering right now. Rasa macam, apa aku buat ni. Rasa macam tak ada tujuan hidup ja ni. Ya allah,teguhkanlah hati aku. Kuatkanlah iman aku. Temukan aku dengan orang yang dapat bawa aku ke jalan yang benar. Amin.

Baru cross border, dah jadi malas.apalah.haishhh

Monday, January 19, 2015

Second day in sg golok

Met a tabligh gang from day before. Mr. Nam treat me to breakfast. Actually he treated me from the day before. Lent me a mosquito net as well. Thanks mr. Nam.

Decided not to "over extort" his kindness, this morning i took a rental bike on my own. Ofcourse there's the driver. Cost me rm 10 per hour. Very nice.

Asked him to take me to a masseuse. A real expert one, not that those erotic girls. My body aches all over. The 50liter bag is really heavy.

I Think i want to ditch that and carry only a pair of clothes. But what makes it heavy is my blanket and jacket for protection from cold and mosquitoes.

My day in sg golok

Arrived here about 8.30 the kids have it nice here. They go to school at 8 if im not mistaken. Dont quite look at any watch.

But at 6.30 already is dark here and everything goes 1 hour earlier than malaysia in here.

Zhur in 12.30 p.m
Asr in 3.30 p.m
Maghrb in 6.30 p.m
Such n such...(time varies according muslim lunar calender)

Things are cheap. Dome bundled clothes cost the same as malaysian value.
T-shirts rm5 each but the values come if u buy more.. 5 clothes for rm 3..such n such..

Foot note: the plug outlets here varies in shape from malaysian design, so remember to bring universal adapter or go ahead and buy a new charger for your device. So far havent found any for my phone. Luckily i came with 2 powerbanks i bought on discount rm 50 each. 20000mAh

Sunday, January 18, 2015

My travel expenses: kelantan

Butterworth to kota baru by bus: rm 40
Kota baru to pengkalan kubor by car: rm 30
Pengkalan kubor to sungai golok by boat :rm 1

Total :71.00

Saturday, January 17, 2015

My travel expenses:perak

These are what i think i will do. I want to record down my expenses for this journey. Mostly fares and room if i have to pay for one.

Perak:
Pantai remis to taiping: bus rm 5.50
Taiping to kamunting: 1.20
Kamunting to butterworth: 8.60
Butterworth to simpang ampat: 2.70
Simpang ampat to bukit minyak: rm 1.40
--(I missed bukit minyak and ended up on bukit mertajam see:- they both have initial B.M) hahah--
Bukit minyak to butterworth: rm 2.00

Total: 21.40

My bed that i will miss

Hahah. This is my diary, i just wanted to post this space i call my room. So that my future me can remember again what i have lost and what i have left behind

About my birthplace

Im on my way to thailand.right now going to kemunting,in a bus on my way there, we went pass taiping hospital. I was born in taiping hospital, all my other siblings are born there.

I remember i used to cry alot when my parents were away. My grandmother used to scold me alot. Hahah.. I remember i also cried when told to read and recite the holy quran. How weak minded i was back then. Hahah..

Hope to catch my bus to kota bharu tonight.. :)

Friday, January 16, 2015

I am leaving

Tomorrow is the day. I am going to leave for real. Moving towards the unknown. There are many things i believe i am going to miss...

1. I am going to miss my home.
The roof provided for me. Its my parents's of course but it is FREE!! Free food,free shelter,free utilities. Really going to miss being here. I feel quite sentimental for a bit this evening just now.

1.1 (hahah..just an honorary mention)
I am going to miss that dank space i call my room. Place i can feel really rested. Where most of my burden are steamed off and i can relax.

There lies my pc. My unfinished projects,my bed. Place where i go to to waste most of my time. Place where i can actually call being at home.

2. I am going to miss my life.
The few friends i made along the path of my life. I am going to miss gaming and the games i tried. I am going to miss the free times i used to have.the leisure time.returning from work,just lounge in front of my pc doing nothing. The easy going job i used to have. I dont think i can find a better job anywhere else. I will also miss the freedom that i had. Do what i want, be anywhere i want to be. Buy anything i want to buy. These two years were the best of my life. To be true, i felt quite scared jumping this leap of faith. Felt like even if i die, i will not have any better life than i used to have these past two years.

3. (A little cliché d mentions)
I am going to miss my family.
Hahah.. Even in my afterlife, i am really going to regret this. But i am going regret not being a fillial son to my father and my mother.
I am going to regret not being a good eldest brother to my other 7 siblings..
I am going to regret not being able to be there when all their important events of their life unfold. I really hope to see they got their first jobs. Want to them get married. (Want to see how their wives will fare compared to mine?) Hahah.. Want to see their children and grandchildren. Becoming an uncle and grandparent for them and mine own..

End note. Hahah it is as people used to said. You are going to learn missing family when you are far, and you are going to learn missing your home when you are on the road.

In the end, on this journey,i hope that i will learn to know more about myself. I will grow more pious than i am right now. I will also attain divine grace from god. Hoping to free my brothers and sisters out there.

To think i would die soon just made me realise how attached i am to this world.how afraid i am of death. Of hell. Of not having anymore bliss in this world and hereafter.

To anyone who read this,please. Tell my parents, i am sorry for not being there. I am sorry i am such an unfilial son. Forgive me mom, dad. Assalamialaikum. :)

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

barbeque recipe

This is a good recipe i got from my friend's mom. Posted here for my safe keeping.

Good for 1 whole chicken/1kg of meat

Ingredients:
1 whole chicken/1 kg meat- cut to size
Dried chillies -20 pcs
Unripe Pineapple - 1 whole fruit or 1/2 if too big.
Onions - 4 bulb
Garlics - 5 cloves
Ginger - 2 inches
Lemongrass - 5 sticks
Sugar,salt and MSG - to taste

Methods:
1.Cut and Boil dried chillies
2.machine chillies with other ingredients
3.fry all the ingredients in some oil to boil.
4.clean and dry chickens in a bucket or pan
5.marinade chicken with ingridients for a few hours

*tips:
1. Boil the chicken first before marinade to get better flavor and reduce barbeque time. Frying also works
2. Marinade over a small stove fire or inside oven for faster marinating time.keep it to warm instead of hot to prevent premature cooking.

Friday, January 2, 2015

Hunting trip seremban

Three things i want to catch in this hunting trip:-

1. Deer or it's cousin species. Still have not seen any. So sad.

2. A tiger. Really want to keep 1 as pet.. It really feel so cool to have 1.

3. A bunian (what i could relate to you as malaysian version of elves)
  *What i could briefly explain a bunian is, they r in the genie class. What you guys call elves as mystical being. Bunian lives in the forest, unseen to our bare eyes. Even if you do go into their territory or even village, you can never see them unless they allow you to. A female bunian is said to be 10x more beautiful than the fairest of human, they are said to have embraced islam as well. Infact, they practice them more and are more pious than average human. What you can really relate to elves right? Spiritually mythical beings who live in the wood but lives in modesty and adhere to spiritual codes of honor.

The reason i want 1 is because i want to make it my wife.hahah. gave up on humans already. If you go and do your research you will find that in the olden times, malaysian people used to co exist with them. There are interracial marriage,there are shaman that summon them for healing power. (Another similar traits with elves). There were also folklores about how bunian used to supply dishes (plates and cups) and dishes (foods) *pun intended* to a whole village.

How i wish i can have one. But usually those who wants them the most ended up never seing one for their whole life.

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Negeri sembilan trip part 2

Arrived at my friend's house in tanjung manis if not mistaken.

He picked me up from the station at 7.am

Went straight to his house. Afterwards went to his durian orchard undergoing transformation into catfish farm.

The sole reasons i came here was so that i could go deer hunting. But he said there were none here. Really wish i could have some to take home.

At night we went night fishing. Sadly i got none. T_T he got some catfish fries(meaning child of fish if u dont know.correct me if.im wrong on this. Ahhh need to brush up on my english. Its geeting worse.huhuu T_T)

Soooo.. *drum rolls*
Here i am today on second day here.
I think i want to go into the woods on my own. Take some commando style survival training on my own..

But i am so lazy, so i'm going to pass..
Hahah =.="

Others: fuck you lazy ass. Still you dream to be a warlord.
Me: ahh,ya..ya.. later i'll go. Right now let me sleep first. It's so nice in this wood. It's calming. Besides I'm still trying to forget that bitch you know.
Others: pfft still you boast you have no emotion. Hahah

About that girl i called a bitch

She is a trainee at my company.
A cute petite girl with quite petite tits.

(Yeah, i've been sneak looking at her tits,not like you never done so before! =.=")

back to the story.

She is cute. Really cute. When i first met her it was an assignment given to her to study about the safety and health hazard on the construction project i was managing.

Long story short, i took up the courage to ask for her number and flirted a little. Turns out she said she also have a thing for me. We ended up being a couple for a month. But i was too jealous. Or so she said.

But who will not? When she can go out with her friends but not with me. She also went really clingy towards new male workers that entered the company. Really breaks me just thinking of what she did.

Imagine she can still chat and text with them till late at night,but hardly reply even one of my message a day.

Latest one is today. And the reply was "sorry im still sleepy,i want to go back to sleep.bye."
And it was 10 a.m

And that was it. Eventhough i still have a deep feeling for her, but i can never have a happy relationship with a bitch like that.

I have to constantly face the torment of my jealousy and insecurity. Of the girl i love having fun with other guys but not me.

Sometimes i felt that she could really go to bed with any of them but i wouldn't know it. It really haunts me. Thats how i think why she is bitch and i need to get away..

Negeri sembilan trip

Yesterday was a mess.

I departed from Lumut at day before yesterday. 31 st december at 4.30 pm. We had to change bus 3 times.

1st bus: from lumut to ipoh then kajang. It rained heavily. My bag and jacket in the bag department ended up totally soaked up.

2nd bus: kajang towards seremban. Ended having leaked diesel tank. Stranded on a highway. Have to wait for replacement bus.

3rd bus: arrived at seremban around 2.30 a.m on 1st jan

Ended in the bus station got nowhere to go,literally felt like a hobo. I slept only on the seats there.Makes me wonder how am i going to survive my global backpacking trip.hahah

This is taking too much space.continue on 2nd post

New year resolution

New year resolution time!..
Hahah.. to be true, i never had any..

All this while,i have been making up resolutions as somebody ask me if there is any..

*Drum roll..*
Finally..
For this year..
My resolution is...
NOTHING!

Hahahah