MAN UP,MAN!

today is really a normal day like every other.
i went to work,and now i am home again.

having slept the entire evening off, i woke up feeling quite calm and eased.
sat down and take a look at my family faces.
saw my mom..my brothers..my sisters..

then it occurred to me.
if my father is dead,it is up to me to raise them. Being the eldest son in the family.

truthfully,i have spent so many time chasing love.
Boasting what a family man that i will be.. when i cant even be there for my real family right now.
what a waste.

i believe I've had it.this is wasting time.
good night fa. I will not be chasing you again.
so long,and good bye. :)

i have my own family to attend to.
besides, I don't really even matter to you at all.
Just a weight on your back. :)

going out

tomorrow is going to be something.

well the past week is something already.

i have infiltrated a local varsity somewhere in malaysia.
stayed in one of the dorm there.
felt nice.heheh.

but tomorrow i am going to meet that someone.
hope that it work.

i hate how she neglects my calls and texts.
need some room?yeah right.
really felt like she have lost her feel for me
is there anything wrong?
i wonder what is my fault this time.

seriously,this feeling of almost losing her,
this feeling of not being loved anymore.it hurts.
it really hurts.i wonder how to brace the fall if she says we are to have nothing anymore.
afraid that she would finally dump me.
how scary. :)

hopefully god will help me through this.
all and all,pray for me k.anyone? :)