melepas tension

this is 1 of the scenes from the mangrove forest in my home town. it is such a relief to be there.

today is my first time rowing a boat.things were such a mess.i kept on circling in the same spot because i dont know how to use double rows heheh..

for a few seconds i could actualy take my mind off her. hah..who couldnt if the view is so breathtaking..heheh..

i went to fish but couldnt catch any.but came my dad to the rescue.he brought a fishing net.but because the tide is on,he only managed to catch a couple of prawns and a single cichlid.

ah,malas aku nak cakap pasai dia..aku tau aku lepas tensen aku..walaupun sesaat..kenapa ar hang xnak bagi aku rasa macam tu?kenapa ar aku mesti kena seksa lagu ni?xlayak ka aku??

its killing me

love is poison that you willingly swallow. i finally admit this. i have been feeling it ever since i know her.

i have told her that i want her and i need her and i hope that she will be mine and that we would be together.but still..why is it so hard for her to say she loves me?

though i respect her stand. still it hurts every time. is it hard for her to admit that she love me? is it so hard for her to say that she loves me? i think she is the result of me breaking all those girls' heart. i understand how it hurt.

how i wish she would come up to me one day and really say that she loves me. how i really wish. this feeling stings. it really does. deep and hard.

it makes me lose my mind.it really does. i wish and i hope and i pray. that one day,she will come by herself to say it to me.

really.all i hope is just she say those three words to me willingly. even once will do.

para mi padre

for my father.
this i found on his FB today.heheh..often did i think him reminiscing his memories in australia was craps. i think he was boasting his memories to us.

but as i saw his comments on the pictures. it hit me. how memories are precious to people.that is 1 of the most precious memories and experience for him. how i wish i could take him and my mother there one day. :)

tribute to a friend

this i came across in the FB of my friend.

he is a friend of mine who quits college and start his own business.definitely salute this 1 guy. dare to defy any laws.he does not go to the lectures that did not get his attention.we both didn't go to the final of my boycotted lecturer.definitely a friend that stick to his friend's back. thanks man..i owe u big time.

i dont realy remember much about what we talked about.but it leaves a deep effect in my heart after that talk.realy opened my mind and made me think maturely.definitely 1 in a million.because of some reasons.i used to stay in his room back when im in semester 3..and i get to know this guy a little more.

hopefully he can be a better man outside. the guy who does not want to be told what to do by others. i believe he can make it. salute you my friend. :)

the down slope in my graph

last night was a disaster.i couldnt even get enough sell to compensate my initial capital for my goods for that night and to pay for the site rent.

i also have some defect in my asset. so tonight i am going to back away from this product i am trying out,and i am going to go for carbonated drinks for tonight. hopefully i will get more profit to compensate my lost for last night.

i dont know whether this strategy might work or not.and also my asset in cash are decreasing.and i dont think i can have enough capital to start this new product.i might need to apply some loan from my associates.i can take some from my savings but that would be too big of a risk.i might lose the money for my rents and bills.

bismillahitawakkal tu alallahu wallahu wa ni'mal wakil wala haulawala quwwataillabillahi aliyul azim.

(its my own version of tawakkal prayer.from prophet's hadith but i sort of combine two into 1)

love is in the air

or maybe fading away..i dont know what to say.realy..its not fading away.its just that im in love and i love her so much that it hurts me when she is not around. i kept thinking of making her neglect all her work and studies so that she could be with me all the time. but nah~~ she is not fully mine yet. we are not even married! :)

the good thing is. deep inside i can believe that she is truthful and loyal to me. i know despite all her more handsome friends and all the guys out their trying their luck to get her, she still does not give any chance to them. deep inside,i know that i am lucky to have her. to have even known her is lucky enough for me. :)

how many hearts have i broken just because i dont want to have any commitment with other girls.hah..i wonder if there will be a payback for all that i have done to those other girls. but that is for allah to do His works. hopefully i can have her as my bride one day..

p/s:hahahah post gatai..hehehe lantak ar..henset rosak punya pasai.merapu meraban la sensorang. memasing busy..siang kelas sama kelas.malam aku meniaga pulak.tak ada masa pun nak bermesej apa semua..lepas kawin lah baru bercinta gamaknya..mintak mintaklah kekal.. aminn.. :)

down memory lane 1

the olden days.how calming.it just give you the feel of calm and joy.
these reviews would be by my point of view.that is as a malay in malaysia.because this country is a multi racial and multi religious country.so i could not post about other race and religiosity view.

heheh..the songs.for now i would place some,but afterwards i might edit or add new posts about them..

i would say

1.xpdc..they have gone through up and down.many band members have come and left. my favorite song would be teman(for now,theres so many but i cant recall their names)

2.butterfingers..the only malaysian group that never change their band members..salute! :) my fav song would be vio pipe,maharani,kabus ribut

3.spider..the once very popular band..their song aladdin, and gosok was once a whistled by many malays. my fav were non in particular,but i would suggest you to listen to their album and find 1 to your liking.

there are many more..but i think that's all for now.

the most popular sitcom would be senario. they have 5 actors which make up the team. apek,lan pet pet,azlee,wahid,1 which i cant remember.

they made many movies and their sitcom is still aired on malaysian tv3 up until now.not much i can say about them because i dont watch tv much.

hmm..thats for tv and radios for now..maybe more later.. :) let me know for things that i overlooked please :)

baldur's gate+throne of baal

feww..ive been looking for this game for the last 10 years!i played this before,but i borrowed the discs and after i returned them,i never played them again..

its very nostalgic actualy.because because of this game i came to know torrents file,i learned to tweak them,and i came to know prince of persia and such.. :) it took me 10 years because a lot of reasons.i cant get enough seeders,i don't get the correct files.and i cant get the correct game i looked for. :)

we think by what we are told

there is no creativity in us left.sad but true.

according to Sir Ken Robinson.for his talk on Do Schools Kill Creativity?
"our education system is created on the idea of academic abality.and there's a reason.the whole system was invented around the world where no system of public education made before the 19th century.they all come into being to meet the need of industrialisme.so the hirarchy is reasoned on two ideas.
1.the most useful subjects for worker are at the top. so you would probably steered benially from the subjects you love most at school,things you like on the ground of you would never get a job doing that.now profoundly mistaken.the world is engulfed in revolution.
2.academic abalities which already become to dominate our view of intelligence because universities designed the systems in their image.if you think about the whole system of academic system around the world is the protractive process of universities entrance.

and the consequences is that many people who are highly brilliant,intelligent people think they are not.because the things they are good at at school are not valued,always actually stigmatized.

in the next 30 years,according to unesco.more people world wide will be educating through education then what they did since in the beginning of history and its the combination of all the things we have talked about.technology and its transformation effect on work and demography and huge explosion of population. suddenly degrees arent worth anything."

seriously.it just kills your intelligence.because you are told what to think since the beginning.from kindergarten,to primary schools.you were asked what you want to be.you are told what not to be.

and added by other influences cigarettes(which most malaysian take),drugs,etc.etc you will just be a mindless puppets.you cant even think for yourself.

autumn in malaysia

thats what i thought about this evening..
raining seasons have come.or maybe the weather mayhem of the world has started to arrive in malaysia as well. let it be..i could not care less.

but with the evening rain sky view.ahh..how calm it feels. im not that sentimental..but somehow i just love rain and storms..it makes me feel soothed and calm..

how i wish i have a camera of my own.

(envious)
of the people out there who can easily have camera but never knows how to take a good picture..hahha.

me: anybody got a camera to give away..let me know..i will gladly take them away from . you :))
others:in your dream!

below is a malay song that might get you into the feel of this post.never mind the vids,just stay with the lyrics if u can :)

wrong feed from ask.com? the place where you are supposed to ask for answers? LOL

this 1 found from the new live trafic feed.. whoa..there's somebody who got to this blog by mistake when asking for p2u?huhuu..sorry for that..but this site is also rated no 2 on ask.com?! nice.. :D

day 2

forgive my poor math.this post was intended as a data gatherer for my self,and as a data sheet so that i can use them to make out my cash flow.you can just ignore this post,its meaningless for you. :)
but for days two of my business.

3/3/2011
income :rm 29.00

outgoing money :plastic bags x 2 =rm 1.60
:chilli sauce bottle x 2 =rm 1.80
:nugget x 1 =rm 5.80
:sausages x 2 =rm 4.40
:my salary(minus foods and drinks)=rm 2.50
total : rm 16.10

profit :rm 29.00-rm 16.10
=rm 12.90

4/3/2011
income :rm24.00
outgoing :salary(after food and drinks) =rm 0.50
:sausages and nuggets for next business day=rm10.20
total :rm 10.70

profit :rm 24.00-10.70
=rm 3.30

note to self: why?what happened?why so much drop??need more marketing strategy.need more products.sob3...

business :)

my first day doing it.penatlah pulak nak cakap bahasa inggeris,malam ni bahasa melayu cukuplah..

plan asal:
nak meniaga jagung.supplier yang aku ada sekarang ni entahlah.dia pun amik daripada orang.aku buat agreement dengan dia,rm0.90 sebiji.jagung susu taiwan tak silap aku.kalau sesiapa tau harga asal benda ni,dan pembekal area penang.gitaulah aku.aku nak mencuba nasib.

perkara yang terjadi:
aku bermodalkan rm30,belilah mayonis,sos cili,lidi,nugget ayam 1 bungkus,sosej 2 bungkus.aku jual,alhamdulillah aku dapat pulangan daripada kawan-kawan aku yang beli.kalau tak ada depa ni,tak tahulah aku apa nak jadi.maybe takkan habis sampai sekarang.. T_T

aku ni dahlah tak reti nak bercakap.nak melaung panggil orang datang dekat gerai aku pun aku takut.hahah..macam bodos.aku nak mencuba nasib lagi esok.tapi aku nak cari barang yang senang nak jual.sesiapa ada idea nak tarik pelanggan?kongsilah dengan aku. :)

kenapa?why?

kenapalah ada budak ni terlampau 'cerdik' sangat?dah aku cerita apa rahsia aku,dia pegi cerita pulak dekat orang lain.kalau lah nak semua orang baca,aku tak dak lah nak cerita dekat dia.baik aku cerita dekat dalam blog ni ja..haish..manusia..ingatkan pandailah sangat nak simpan rahsia..rupa2nya tahap blur macam peti ais jugak..otak beku..haish..apalah nasib..dah aku kena 'attack' balik..sadih betoi..

'hebat'nya aku

merosak hati orang aku ar no 1.sapa xpernah sakit hati dengan aku?sengaja,xsengaja..siapa kenal aku,semua mesti sakit ati dengan aku.WAJIB! aku ulang sekali lagi, WAJIB! macam apa ja aku rasa..entahlah labu..

as i am writing here right now,ada satu lagi hati bakal hancur dalam tangan aku.(macamlah boleh aku nak bangga dengan benda ni). lantaklah.minta-mintalah dia lebih bahagia selepas ni..tujuan aku hadir dalam hidup kamu-kamu semua,hanya untuk membiarkan kamu semua merasa apa erti sakit hati. sekian :|

aku tak faham rupanya

apa yang hendak aku tulis..too private for you to read.its just..tenangnya aku malam ini..walau seketika.. :)

sadisnya hidupku sem ini..malanglah hidup ini

huuu..mengadu domba lah aku dekat blog ni..sebab dekat mana lagi aku nak mengadu domba kalau bukan dekat sini.
ada orang tersayang langsung busy.nak cari kawan tak ada.nak mengadap mak bapak,haram nak pegi.(anak derhakalah katakan).
duit dah habis.orang hutang tak mahu bayar.duit elaun tak masuk masuk lagi.duduk rumah sewa dapat housemate kuat mengata.ada pulak suka menyibuk hal aku.(or maybe aku saja yang malas nak campur hal orang,sampai kena tegur kenapa tak nak keluar bilik.huu..projek akhir tahun xgerak2 lagi.terbengkalai hampir 3 bulan..ada ahli kumpulan fyp pulak harap kualiti ja,xdak kuantiti.
sorang kaki game(aku)
sorang brainless,langsung byk cakap ja idea xbernas langsung
sorang pemalas nak mati,idea xdak,kerja xbuat
sorang lagi dah dua minggu tak datang kelas.attendance memanjang kosong.dah tahap nak kena buang kolej.
aku terasa runsing sangatlah sem ni..macam manalah hidup aku ni..sob3..
nk mengadu dengan allah dah malu lah pulak..dosa menimbun.dengan sapa lah lagi mampu aku nak mengadu..huu..aku bukan nak harap simpati.just,semacam diari awam aku lah pulak dekat blog ni.sesapa yang terbaca post kali ni,ampunkan hamba.kerana hamba hanya insan biasa tak terlepas dari resah gelisah..

p/s:aku kalau dah tensen 3 tahap keluar
1:buat2 xpeduli dekat orang tu
2:maki dalam bahasa orang putih lah
3:langsung jadi bahasa melayu asli,berpuitis2 lagi tu..hahah