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how do i say this.hmm...
Lets put it like this.
Lately ive been missing fa quite alot.
Maybe its the kickback from what ive done before.
I dont know how long things will go on.
Maybe a few more days.maybe weeks.
Or perhaps this will be a lifetime of regret.
All and all i just want to know more about her now.
Turns out she also changed her number.so there goes my chance.
See you later fa.

This is an embarassing lament. But wtf, this is a diary after all. Thing that i will leave behind as a mark that i once used to live on the earth.
Wish that i will not regret things anymore in my grave and on the afterearth.

Weekend in masjid jamek

My weekend in masjid jamek.in preparation for my aussie gig next month. To no surprise this area is swarming with bangladeshis. Even to ask for direction is hard enough for me to find a malaysian. Should i learn their language?? Hmm..i wonder. Hahahah

For the record im the type that condones borderless earth. For me rezeki is anywhere. If you work,you eat.thats all.

Advice from above

About the time i was in penang,

on a supposedly 'date' with my then fiance.

in the evening of that day,on the eve of leaving for the day.

i was approached by a drug addict. cough syrup by the smell. and also some black mint candy 'hacks' brand.

he approached me about god,about believe what u call Iman.

that guy keeps reoccuring in my thoughts again and again some times.

of course,around that time im quite involved with the tabligh guys

not that involved but i have some acquaintances,joined some activities.

still the marks left was when im forgetting him,

thinking like its ok to do sins when its still sin all the way.

maybe it was a way to save her.because its her that deserve the saving in the way.

she is so preserved in a way.somewhat holier than me if you know what i mean.

and i let her go, hahah

right now i believe im still saved by him anyway.

same as my bangkok trip.

the wallet i lost for a reason.

all and all,i still hope i will be saved when im dead.

most importantly, the guy sent from him 'above' really wakes me up.

that im not that much better than that drug addict.