new educational blog!!

hi..ive made this new blog.its a special blog to teach you how to read and write japanese.
visit.

http://readwritejapanese.blogspot.com/

my ranting of the day..

how can i go on with a live like this. damn plagiarizer. i hate it when someone do that in front of my face. especially when it involves me in it.

maybe you will be wondering what the heck is this? but still. it is my final year project group, and i am the leader of that team.

i cant stand how they keep on copying the contents of previous batches' contents and adding them into our proposal.

if this is how they make their work,i wonder how this country is going to be in the future..

need to stop this ranting.need to supervise them more.stupid humans..

coretan kahwin aku lagi...

usai solat tadi,aku menangis lagi.pinta doaku setiap hari aku panjatkan kembali.sayang sekali,bukan dosa-dosaku yang aku tangisi,bukan juga nasib para mujahidin yang aku fikiri.

pintaku acapkali.biarlah tarikh perahwinanku dipercepatkan.biarlah dipermudahkan urusan perkahwinanku. Allah,alangkah malu aku dengan permintaan ini..kalaulah dapat aku menangis sebegini untuk dosa-dosa aku terdahulu. pasti tenang sekali hati ini nanti. pasti lebih allah kasihi diri ini.

bukan aku menulis disini untuk meminta simpati. bukan juga mahu mendabik diri. cuma ingin aku coretkan sedikit catatan biar satu masa dapat aku kembali menatap kisah diri ini. momento peribadi yang aku kongsi.

malu sekali lelaki menangisi perkara setemeh ini.namun apa dayaku.aku cuma insan biasa.anak tukang rumah miskin yang tak punya harta dan tak punya upaya untuk ku sunting seorang isteri. juga tak aku mampu untuk menyara seisi rumahku sendiri. famili itu mungkin hanya berseri di dalam mimpi. sayang sekali.

bukan aku kejar status beristeri.bukan aku kejar anak sendiri. hanya,aku tak ingin terus bermandi nafsu sendiri. tak aku mahu lagi hidup dalam godaan dunia penuh penipuan. takut aku terjerumus lebih dalam ke arah neraka.

aku mengaku. aku bukan tinggi agama. bukan juga aku hebat berkerjaya sendiri. aku ini hanya seorang pelajar. hidup aku juga dalam tanggungan lagi. tapi,kenapa tak boleh buat aku nak akhirkan semua ini? kenapa tak boleh aku nak selamatkan diri sendiri?
maafkan aku buat sesiapa yang membaca coretan kusut hari ini. anggaplah kalau aku bermonolog seorang diri.dalam mencari tenang dalam hidup aku yang sepi.

being grateful (babling version)

grateful for today i have successfully submitted my final year project proposal although there are some mistakes on that report.(which i realised after the printings were done).still,i feel so grateful because theres so many help from allah that i recieved in the form of coincidences today.(too many to be told).

i cant help but feel envious to those married couples out there.because almost every pray after my prayer i would ask that i could get married faster.but also because i havent done any effort towards getting more money to ask for her hand, probably that is why i didnt get into marriage yet right now. :) but still.im grateful because i can still keep in touch with her.i even can confirm her love towards me.(though she never say them in words). grateful i am because i have somebody to love me back from the 1 i loved too.

my saying these because i know some people who can only see from far their crush and do not get the chance to be loved by that person. also there is many people hurt from being dumped by their loved one. still..although love before marriage is a forbidden thing.i realy feel grateful because i am engaged to someone i love. :)

my writing today is a bit off because im sleep deprieved..(didnt sleep last night because of the proposal up until this hour)

whoaaaaa

thats what i blurted out when i saw a blogger friend who have 351 followers(and all are people i know!) hahah..and they barely come to my page. how sad. but its okay. i dont think i need that amount of followers.

ill just consider my posts as intended to those lucky chosen people out there. hehee..though amount seems like a big thing,but i think whats born from my readers heart towards my posts matters most.

others:you still do not want to admit that people doesnt care about what you say?
me: (-_-")

but its okay.to my followers..
thank you very much!

ども　ありがと　ございます

know what.i think i want to make a japanese reading class for free for all of you :)
maybe after my final year project?

and thats for now, with love to all assalamualaikum :)

regret

Nah,i dont want to lament about anything.its just something i heard from a vlogger in youtube. :)

"post something that you would not regret about in the afteryears.. :D

to think about that,im already beginning to regret 1 or 2 of my posts in here.maybe they are too emotional i guess. but isnt that why you blog?so that you can share your feelings with the world? i dont know.in fact,i think i dont know anything about this world..

others:what are you babling about? CRAZY.
me:sorry..

well,this might be a bit boring post.but,what to do. well,there you go.a small post for the day.

thank you

thats all i can get from her? does only thanks is worth for me?cant i get more?cant she just tell that she love me?dont you know that it hurts me?it hurts me real bad.i cant stand living like this.i cant pretend like her.she is good.she is pious.its just that she is too good and pious that i dont deserve to get her?

how i wish i could just get her hands.is it worth for me to continue my pursue for her?i really want her.but i cant live like this.i will definitely lose my mind. damnit i only wanted to be loved.is that hard for her to even just pretend for me??just pretend that she loves me?why?why did she make me like this?