Face whom He loves

Met someone so beautiful on the bus
Kept stealing glances at her
I know if shes aware of this im sure to be labeled a freak.hahah

The point is, the feeling that i achieved.that tingling moment.
You can imagine them like the sparkling glittering moments in some tv drama or such.

That calmness and relaxation that you feel by lookinh at her.

The face that you love. I do hope that i could be look at by Allah with the same feeling or more. Wouldnt it be great. To be looked at by him, as if you are his lover.
P/s: No Homo Okay! Hahahah

New adventure: my journey to kangaroo land

After my long hiatus, im back on another journey.
This time, its Australia!

As usual,lets talk funding.
Ticket from pantai remis towards manjung.on bas amanjaya (direct bus) : rm 6.80
Manjung to pudu central: rm27.10

Teringat semasa dulu

how do i say this.hmm...
Lets put it like this.
Lately ive been missing fa quite alot.
Maybe its the kickback from what ive done before.
I dont know how long things will go on.
Maybe a few more days.maybe weeks.
Or perhaps this will be a lifetime of regret.
All and all i just want to know more about her now.
Turns out she also changed her number.so there goes my chance.
See you later fa.

This is an embarassing lament. But wtf, this is a diary after all. Thing that i will leave behind as a mark that i once used to live on the earth.
Wish that i will not regret things anymore in my grave and on the afterearth.

Weekend in masjid jamek

My weekend in masjid jamek.in preparation for my aussie gig next month. To no surprise this area is swarming with bangladeshis. Even to ask for direction is hard enough for me to find a malaysian. Should i learn their language?? Hmm..i wonder. Hahahah

For the record im the type that condones borderless earth. For me rezeki is anywhere. If you work,you eat.thats all.

Advice from above

About the time i was in penang,

on a supposedly 'date' with my then fiance.

in the evening of that day,on the eve of leaving for the day.

i was approached by a drug addict. cough syrup by the smell. and also some black mint candy 'hacks' brand.

he approached me about god,about believe what u call Iman.

that guy keeps reoccuring in my thoughts again and again some times.

of course,around that time im quite involved with the tabligh guys

not that involved but i have some acquaintances,joined some activities.

still the marks left was when im forgetting him,

thinking like its ok to do sins when its still sin all the way.

maybe it was a way to save her.because its her that deserve the saving in the way.

she is so preserved in a way.somewhat holier than me if you know what i mean.

and i let her go, hahah

right now i believe im still saved by him anyway.

same as my bangkok trip.

the wallet i lost for a reason.

all and all,i still hope i will be saved when im dead.

most importantly, the guy sent from him 'above' really wakes me up.

that im not that much better than that drug addict.

Ongoing thoughts

Something keeps bothering me right now.

My father have to resign by the end of this month. Health condition, his hip bone and back bone sort of slipped,so he is limping right now. The back bone disc also sort of have some tumor.

Right now im just wondering over lots of things. What should i do.

I cant really get good paying job right now.
I also need to find some sort of income to help the family.
In the mean time i still wants to travel.
Somehow i also been thinking should i just go die in syria?
Afraid that in the after life, i would not have enough good deeds to allow me to go to heaven.
Even think that i should just rear goats on the family estate.not even close to 1acre3.

im not even married yet.in the future can i support my family.
Can i fullfill my childs desire,or we are stuck in the 'bimbo' cycle.hahah
Can i make them happy.or they detest me like i detest my father.

Also,today we got our internet line cut off.he cant pay for the bills anymore. And tonight our house,theres a blackout.thunder struck the house. Amidst the flashlight glare and darkness shadow, i saw my father's look. How deep inside be is saddened by all thats happening to him. And the useless son who is leeching on him after saying that he'd left the house for good.

All and all, though i cant say this to you, im sorry dad.

Haah..if only you are still here farah,you would be disgusted with me as well.hahah

The office tv series

This is the best series ive watched in my life. I found it doing some random personality quiz.

Unfortunately, i am tobby. Who is he? Tune in and find out for yourself. Unfortunately i dont want to post any link. Its too troublesome. Heheh.