on a supposedly 'date' with my then fiance.
in the evening of that day,on the eve of leaving for the day.
i was approached by a drug addict. cough syrup by the smell. and also some black mint candy 'hacks' brand.
he approached me about god,about believe what u call Iman.
that guy keeps reoccuring in my thoughts again and again some times.
of course,around that time im quite involved with the tabligh guys
not that involved but i have some acquaintances,joined some activities.
still the marks left was when im forgetting him,
thinking like its ok to do sins when its still sin all the way.
maybe it was a way to save her.because its her that deserve the saving in the way.
she is so preserved in a way.somewhat holier than me if you know what i mean.
and i let her go, hahah
right now i believe im still saved by him anyway.
same as my bangkok trip.
the wallet i lost for a reason.
all and all,i still hope i will be saved when im dead.
most importantly, the guy sent from him 'above' really wakes me up.
that im not that much better than that drug addict.
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