I am losing him..forever..

My father is dying.prostate cancer.right now hes living on painkillers.no surgery.because he need to feed the young ones.

And me,crawling around on these petty cents that i make everyday peddling burgers.

Cant even get a leave to visit home. Fucking boss.hope he dies someday being alone forever burning in hell

Im alone again

Fucking shit
When i just found someone new. she goes for someone else.
What the fuck.
I am always on the losing side.
Fuck me.

I have to be the best!

Salted egg pumpkin

Ingredients:

Pumpkin
Salted egg(yolk only)
All purpose Flour
Butter
Oil

Steps:
1.cover pumpkin with flour.
2.deep fry until golden
3.heat up butter and yolk until bubbled.
4.put in fried pumpkin into butter mix in pan
5.ready to serve

Chef tips.
1.fried pumpkin should be light as in tempura fries otherwise you have failed

Good luck 😊

Salted egg pumpkin

Ingredients:

Pumpkin
Salted egg(yolk only)
All purpose Flour
Butter
Oil

Steps:
1.cover pumpkin with flour.
2.deep fry until golden
3.heat up butter and yolk until bubbled.
4.put in fried pumpkin into butter mix in pan
5.ready to serve

Chef tips.
1.fried pumpkin should be light as in tempura fries otherwise you have failed

Good luck 😊

Hokkien mee kl style recipe

I took this from taste with jason recipe

Ingredients

Pork bone broth (pork bone,fish bone,prawn skins boiled for a few hour)
One sided fish powder (bbq until dry then turn to powder)
Soy sauce soup
Noodle (alkaline type)
Lard
Garlic paste
Protiens (beef,squid etc2)

Steps

1.heat in oil.
2.add garlic,protiens,noodle,generous amount of soups and close up to simmer the ingredients.
3.open when the ingredients dry up.fry.add lard at the end of cooking for fuller creamy taste.
4.ready to serve

Chef tips:
1.one sided fish is the direct translation,it is a fish that have eyes and mouth only on one side of its body.5his is the ingredient that defines ur hokkien noodle from any other noodle.
2.if you can fry on charcoal stove it will give you better taste from that charcoal smell.same goes for koey teow or that flat rice noodle.fry on your bbq set if you have 1.
3.alkaline noodle have that texture that makes you feel fuller and it have the distinct taste making it different from normal rice noodle.
4.lard is for creamy taste that is close to what other chef emulates with adding butter after certain dishes.
5.i would replace all pork based ingredient with beef just for halal reasons 😊

All and all,enjoy and try and try again until you make it.happy cooking.

Freethinker way of thinking,is it really free

Had a heat up conversation with this ex lecturer.guess your upbringing really makes you and your way of thinking.

Or is it thats just so backward?anyway listen up if you like.

Are you sure you are free enough when you try to defy every law in existance just because you dont want to bother other people's 'ease of life'?

When even god's law is at stake.
It really makes me wonder,what does it mean when you say god's law is not 'in the right moment' to be implemented. Or 'we are not at the right condition' to apply them. Just because we have so many religions and race to take care of.

Is it really that what god tells you to do is irrelevant to be run? Or is it you that are trying to reinvent the wheels?

Try and error,and failing,and societies ruined after each failed laws. Like a system that does not let you control it,saying you dont have enough administrative power.just to be smashed and ruined by you because it does not produce the result that you want it to.

Like windows not letting you copy files to partition D because you are not admin, or android kitkat not allowing you to copy files to external memory card because its a stupid law reinvented to 'ensure stability and security'. When its just a hindrance and nuisance to be thrown away in the end.heheh

A small dot on god's land

Google map sure helped me alot. I used it to find my kiblat,used it to navigate my tours.many more.

Right now when i zoomed out from the map it really occurs to me.im just a small dot on a 1/5th section of this island called australia.

Still,the journey seems so far..
And tiring..
And boring me..
Making me give up..
Making me stressed out..

Guess i really am a negative person huh..


Note to self:
We are on a journey to find ourself.
To fin peace,and quiet.and harmony.
Live off the land.
Learn as much as you can
Before we walk some more to eternal death.

Maybe spending a year here.
Later on,to japan.
Before that see our parents first.
See hanif's wife.how she look.how she fares.
After that off to die..