Ongoing thoughts

Something keeps bothering me right now.

My father have to resign by the end of this month. Health condition, his hip bone and back bone sort of slipped,so he is limping right now. The back bone disc also sort of have some tumor.

Right now im just wondering over lots of things. What should i do.

I cant really get good paying job right now.
I also need to find some sort of income to help the family.
In the mean time i still wants to travel.
Somehow i also been thinking should i just go die in syria?
Afraid that in the after life, i would not have enough good deeds to allow me to go to heaven.
Even think that i should just rear goats on the family estate.not even close to 1acre3.

im not even married yet.in the future can i support my family.
Can i fullfill my childs desire,or we are stuck in the 'bimbo' cycle.hahah
Can i make them happy.or they detest me like i detest my father.

Also,today we got our internet line cut off.he cant pay for the bills anymore. And tonight our house,theres a blackout.thunder struck the house. Amidst the flashlight glare and darkness shadow, i saw my father's look. How deep inside be is saddened by all thats happening to him. And the useless son who is leeching on him after saying that he'd left the house for good.

All and all, though i cant say this to you, im sorry dad.

Haah..if only you are still here farah,you would be disgusted with me as well.hahah

The office tv series

This is the best series ive watched in my life. I found it doing some random personality quiz.

Unfortunately, i am tobby. Who is he? Tune in and find out for yourself. Unfortunately i dont want to post any link. Its too troublesome. Heheh.

How to change your dns server on android

On android device you will find that changing only your dns number is quite hard.you either need to setup your vpn first by registering on some vpn provider and such. Or you need to root your device.which is another gruelling task for non tech savvy like us.

To solve the problem,download

Engelsiz

This is by far the easiest.
It is only a few kb in size,and you can find them on google store.

In case things change in the future just search for "dns changer android non root"
That should help you in with standard devices.

Happy surfing :)

Foot note edit: for you first timers, 8.8.8.8 is your lucky number. Good luck :)

Update on myself

This is an update on myself. I am becoming more evil by the days.although there are remorse in my heart,but i still spout harsh words. Anger easily fills my heart. Every mistake makes me lose my temper. Every stupidity  gestures makes me want to scold them hard. This is just a reminder post for my future self. If you read this later, remember what we want is just peace and harmony. Do good to others so that we can have a peaceful death

Why i want to teach

Because i love kids and i believe that the future generation need to learn more about life in itself. I believe i can help shape them to make this world a better place.

And why i want to teach english exactly.

Because i know i have the advantages of understanding this language better. There are moments that when i hear to or read someone using english that is broken it irritates me. I felt that i want to help them understand better. This sort of feeling irks me so much that at every time it happens i just feel the urge to correct them if i can.

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah
Thank you allah the almighty
The one who feeds and starve whom ever he wants.

Alhamdulillah allah the almighty
The ruler of the universe
Who controls every deed and sins of every being
Who controls the well being and souls of every creature he made.

Im writing this because how thankful i am for some few slices of bread that i recieved from the traveler friend i met.
And thankful for this test about how i lost my wallet. Heheh

My trip to Bangkok

Everything is messed up today.

Upon arrival,I lost my wallet. Asked the station master also cant help so, here i am on a train going home to sg.kolok.

I LITTERALLY HAVE RM1.50 WITH ME

Met a really cool trio. They studied in a religious school mostly known as 'sekolah pondok'. Named nazri and ibrahim and the other guy i didnt bother to ask.

Because we all are malay looking so they took a free ticket for me from bangkok to sg.kolok. if not, i would have to pay a hefty rm 51.40 ticket.

Along my trip in thailand, i really have been helped alot by people from religious background. Theres mr. Nam a tabligh guy who treat me with food and took care of my accommodation. There's these guys who treat me to food and drinks. Alhamdulillah

I think allah took away the money because my will is wavering. I've been thinking to hook up with some whore, I've been thinking to get a cheap wife from cambodia etc,etc. So, that's why tjis happened. I even plan to go shopping in Naran. Even the thailanese said the items there are cheap. Hahah

Foot note: i regret not getting a shoulder bag sooner. I planned to get them in Naran along with a tent and a bike. That could save me lots of money on trips and accommodation. Hahah.

So, here i am, going back to malaysia for all the stuff to be remade. Lucky i still have my passport so things wouldnt get all that sticky. I hope. Heheh

Pss: i did something stupid just now. I was in the train's bathroom. After im done, i want to get out and couldnt push or pull the door. I even slammed the door for help. Eventually the door slides open and that was a very2 embarrassing moment. Hahah losing my wallet really takes a toll on me. I remembered just yesterday i was boasting to myself saying i can do anything even without money. Hahah